Mixed Messages...

Have you ever felt like that you are driving the people you care most about away? Well I do, I'll admit that I sometimes show that I care by being hard on my loved ones. So you can tell if i care about someone or not, If I don't give one-toot about what he/she does, eat, and etc... Then I'm sorry to say, you're the bottom feeder in my "circle of love". But If i nag about everything that you do, eat, and etc... Then It's because I love you, and I want you to be perfect. I know that's a little too much to ask from a person, but I just can't help myself.

So I'd like to apologize to all the people that I might have sent the wrong message too, in my methods of socializing. They're meant to show Love, not hate. It's like kindergarten, If you like someone, you push him or her into mud. But frankly, you really like that someone.

So here's my apology to Tasha, Naqib, Ma and Abah... It's been hell I know. Believe me when I say that this is just my way of showing that I Love You!

Moved out, well sorta...

I just been given the go-ahead to move from my closet-sized room to a bigger room. The catch was, I had to move everything on my own. Although my kid brother kept me company most of the time, it was tiring nonetheless.

Now everything feels weird with all this extra space. Guess I'll just get used to it. The first night is already a sleepless night. Could not talk about it with my girlfriend as her phone's battery is "konged".

It's not all bad though, best thing is i got room to stretch, there's even a carpet. LOL. So yeah, definitely an upgrade for me.

R.I.P. Kitty

Yesterday, 20/12/08, my cat "Kitty", collapsed and died during the previous night. My maid discovered him that morning and buried him in our backyard. This happened when i was asleep. My kid brother told me the news when i woke up and took me to the spot where my maid buried him.

Not many people know about Kitty, he's the naughty cat, compared to Moby, whom everyone loves. Now, Moby's given away to a family friend, and Kitty R.I.P. we no longer have a cat in our household.

My kid brother said, Kitty must've ate a rat and died, while my mum thinks he was poisoned, my maid thinks he died of internal injuries from a previous fight. I think he died of being unloved. Since everyone loved Moby, Kitty was usually ignored. I myself have treated Kitty this way, although i didn't hate Kitty. It's just I found Moby, and i had a spiritual connection with Moby. Now i feel guilty for having treated Kitty that way.

What i've learnt from all this, and this doesn't only applies to pets. It can be applied to animals, nature, people, and inanimate things; you don't realize what wrongs you've done to something or someone, till it's gone. I've learnt my lesson, and hope i won't repeat it. But as humans we're bound to make mistakes.

For what it's worth, Kitty, rest in peace.

Merciless Gladiator

I've decided to post a section on my pride and glory, My level 80 Blood Elf Retribution Paladin.

Recently Blizzard launched the all new expansion "Wrath of the Lich King" (WotLK), which:

• Raises the Level cap from 70 to 80
• New Continent - Northrend
• New profession - Inscriptions
• New Hero Class - Death Knight
• Siege Weapons and destructible buildings

Though all these new flashy features are currently unavailable on my server(private server). The game master are doing what they can, to fix the content ASAP.

As for now, I've leveled my Blood Elf Paladin, Devas to level 80, with few hiccups. I'm proud to say that i was the 2nd player to get to 80 without donation on the horde side. I'm totally loving the new achievement tab. With most of the contents still unavailable i get to completing as much reputations and achievements in the old world as to prepare for the new continent, Northrend.

Devas, is specced 0/18/53, which to me is a PVP specced Retribution Paladin. I sacrificed some damage dealing talents to get some survivalist talents down the protection tree, which i feel is needed in a PVP environment.

Profession wise, Devas is a Blacksmith and an Enchanter. This is a good combination IMO. Blacksmiths is pretty common amongst plate armored classes for crafting armor and weapons. While i use Enchanting to enchant my gear to it's fullest potential.

Devas is moderately geared, not perfect, but I'm happy with it. Still awaiting for the opening of Northrend. But for the time being I'm geared as follow:

• Head - Justicar Crown
• Neck - Choker of Endless Nightmare
• Shoulder - Justicar Shoulderplates
• Back - Shadowmoon Destroyer's Drape
• Chest - Hard Khorium Battleplate
• Wrist - Swiftsteel Bracers
• Hands - Hard Khorium Battlefists
• Belt - Red Belt of Battle
• Legs - Felfury Legplates
• Boots - Lightbringer Boots
• Finger - Band of Ruinous Delight & Unstoppable Aggressor's Ring
• Trinket - Medallion of the Horde & Berserker's Call
• Libram - Libram of Avengement
• Weapon - Stormherald

I'd like the dynamics of a retribution paladin. WotLK has buffed this class a bit more, and IMO this spec is now a viable class for PVE and PVP. Although i enjoy a good raid, which is hard to come by on this server. I prefer the trials and tribulation of the PVP Battleground.

For those who enjoy the givings of Blizzard's World of Warcraft, but doesn't have the dough to play on their sanctioned servers, come join us at DemetroxCore server, donations are optional :D

Will post more, when more comes...

Re-entry

Finally i got my approval letter from UNIKL which states:-

"Pendaftaran Semula Semester Januari 2009".

It feels like a burden has been lifted. I won't be playing around anymore and not let opportunities slip away from me again.

Pirated

I brought my system unit to IT Hyperstore at CineLeisure Complex to get it diagnosed for it's abrupt hangs. The technician refused to touch my PC because I was operating a pirated copy of Windows(I'm ashamed of this, but i can't afford a genuine copy). Instead i asked him some question just to get a feel of what the problem might be...

Previously i asked an in game friend about my pc problems, and he said it could be caused by several things. But he pointed out that it could be either a hardware or a software failure. In the Hardware department, he pointed out that it could be the RAM or the Hard disk. While in the software section he said that i might have installed a software incorrectly. He added by saying that it could be my pc overheating. So i took in what he said with a grain of salt, and did what i could do for free.

So i unplugged my system unit, and placed it on the floor, got the case open and started to dust-out the dust in my case. When i was satisfied with it, I put everything back together. But the problem still persist. ...So here's when i went to get second opinion before a fork out any cash for it. Back to the technician at the Hyperstore, i ask him what could've caused the problem. He insists that it's the authenticity of my Windows. It's almost hard to believe. I've been using pirated Windows for awhile now, and only now have I encountered this problem. Either i'm missing some new development from Microsoft, that allows them to obstruct the usage of pirated copies of their software or this smooth talking technician is trying to get me to buy his merchendise. So again i took in what he said with a grain of salt and got home disappointed.

So far, It looks like I gotta spend a little to get this problem solved. I'm considering all the possibilities, but i need someone to pin point the exact problem. So i can cut some cost by doing so. So most probably i'm got to get a third opinion and most probably gonna get it from a neighbourhood technician. Probably he can clear things up for me. From there i could budget the things i need to solve this problem.

So till my third opinion, i'll keep posting.

Saying "No"

Today is the third day that has passed since i decided to stop smoking. My mental state is at war with my physical being. There's a voice at the back of my head telling me "Resistance is futile". I guess it's my nicotine-starved body trying to replenish itself.

This time, I'm gonna say "No" for good. I just have to have the will to hold it out a bit longer, to break my body's' bond with tobacco. Here's just a tip for those trying to stop also. Keep yourself busy, cause the pressure builds up when you're bored and alone. For instance, Late night, after I play World of Warcraft, just the brief few minutes where you lay in bed. You don't know what to do, It's hard to sleep. Suddenly you're thinking of taking a puff, but i forced myself to bed and woke up the next morning with no remorse.

I know it's hard, but i believe in the saying "You can do whatever you set your mind to", and i got my mind locked on quitting my addiction to smoking. Looking at the statistics of deaths and disease caused by smoking, I believe it's the smarter choice.