Have you ever felt like bad things happen in chains? Not stopping till you break the chain? Well recently, I've experienced this so called phenomenon, the chained-bad-luck.
It all starts in College (duh), lately it's been rather hectic. You know, chasing deadlines, tests, quizzes and etc... This past week was the worst of 'em all. I must admit this is my own doing, and am not ashamed to admit when I screwed up.
So this week is the last week before midterm break. I had a couple assignments due, a few drafts for future-known assignments, several quizzes and test (partly due to my absenteeism). Coming into class unprepared is fucked up. Especially when there's a quiz or test that you're so not ready for. Brush that aside i still went through the week as best as i could. Did all the tests and quizzes, orals, and assignments the best i could.
Thought it would be cake, boy was i wrong.
So the end result is a catastrophe, i flunked one test, and one oral.
Pause.
/bask in the moment
Resume.
Ok here's some good news, I got assurance from my lecturers that i still can pull through with some tweaks in me. So case closed.
So it's Saturday [yeah i have class on sat !], just finished class, about to seize the mid semester hols coming next week with an iron grip. Then reality strikes, holiday assignments. The fucking 2 words i didn't want to hear. It'd be alright if it was 1 or 2. They know how to really drill it in to ya. So, instead of relaxation this coming week, it's more hustling and bustling.
Who am i to complain.
Oh, it doesn't stop there. The icing on the cake. The best part of it all. My tired state, and my grumbling mood just costed me my relationship. So there's a lil' something to tear that wound right open.
If I could describe this past week in one word, do ya know what it'll be?
HELL
So back to this chained-bad-luck shit, like i mentioned before, shit will keep on happening till i break it. So now, i just need someone to point me towards the right direction so that i can break this fucking chain into a gazillion pieces.
p.s. excuse the language, as you can tell, I'm FUCKING PISSED
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u know, i am doing blog hopping, n suddenly i came across ur blog.
ReplyDeletei shall say depression is our life acquaintance. we all learn from it. n yes, sometimes it costs us too much than we hope it will, but what to do? life is hardly fair.ups and downs are common.
however, do never give up. i believe your beloved one wants to help u. maybe she made u crazy, she irritates u in wayyy i can never imagine (since i am a girl too) but believe me, my woman instinct told me that she just love u so much. it hurts to see u failing... maybe she need to be with u often, n help u a bit instead of whining, but u should also stop giving excuses for being grumpy and mean to her.
after all, u never want to lose somebody dear to you. n mind my word, if u dont do something to mend it, u will regret later.
all the best with your life. i believe u can make it.~
blog hopping..
ReplyDeletesimple few words for us to ponder upon
" Failing to plan is actually planning to fail"